For a Moment

A few days ago I went and got a physical done. I figured it was probably a good idea to get checked out because, well, I just wanted to know that I was still in good health. At least I hoped so. I hadn't heard anything back about my lab work, so my over-active imagination started to kick into high gear. I started thinking about what would happen if I found out that I had a terminal illness.... How long would I have to live? What would the illness be like? Would I suffer for a long time? But more importantly, what would I try to make sure I told my kids before I died? What would I want to tell other people? What would I do with the rest of my days?

Thank goodness these thoughts only lasted for a short time before the more rational part of my brain took over! What I realized then, was that I probably wouldn't want to live my life much different than I am right now. Because right now, I have two beautiful children that I am blessed to be able to take care of and watch in amazement as they slowly figure out who God made them to be. I am working at a place that I actually like to go to every day. I have friends and family who I am so thankful for, and I love spending time with them! I have a church that I love to go to, where I am growing in my faith.

I also realized that I have some desires of my heart that have not yet been fulfilled. I hope that they will be. I have a dream of what that would look like. But even better, I can look forward to what lies ahead for me! To what God already knows He has planned for me. Well, at least for as long as God sees fit to give me breath.... Psalm 139:15&16 says, "My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

When I got home today, I got two envelopes in the mail. They were both from the doctor's office. So with the greatest anticipation, I ripped them open. And as I scanned those pages, I was overcome with joy. For there on those pages I saw one test result after another with a checkmark in the "normal" box. For a moment, I can breathe a sigh of relief. For a moment, I am sure that I am healthy and can continue to live this life that God has given me.

I also realized that I don't want to take any moments of my life for granted. That I want to live every last one of them to it's fullest potential- whether I'm spending time with my kids or scrubbing the bathroom floor. Whatever it is that I do in any given moment, I want to live it in a way that will show God how very thankful I am for all that He has blessed me with!

AMEN!!!